I started my first blog in 2004. Six years have passed and I still don’t know why I would or would not blog. When I started planning this blog last summer, I created a mission statement and ten categories that would be instant topics so that I could stay focused and write regularly. Obviously I am not able to say “mission accomplished,” after a three month hiatus. Shame on me. But not really.
Writing a blog could be considered narcissistic. I mean, do my readers honestly wait with baited breath to find out what my next thoughts will be? I doubt it. I’m an avid reader of blogs, and I know how I feel. There are days I cannot wait to see what Donald Miller, Michael Hyatt, Tony Morgan, or Tyler Stanton have to say. Yet other days, I don’t really care.
I had a discussion with a friend a few weeks ago. We discussed why she had not started the blog she’s considered for months, as well as some other creative writing endeavors. We landed in the same place. Two reasons keep us…well…me from the regular routine of writing. Fear of rejection and procrastination. Neither are valid. Both are crippling. Neither are acceptable. Both seem to have a larger impact in other areas of my life, yet also with most every person on the planet. I wonder how many good ideas never came to fruition of fear or procrastination.
Furthermore, I wonder how many versions of this same message I have written as my customary lament of guilt after an unexcused lapse in writing.
I learned something recently about writing. A friend at a weekly men’s group was sharing Eugene Peterson’s paraphrase of 2 Corinthians 13:14 found in the message. It is a powerful interpretation of Paul’s closing in his letter: “May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all.”
The words paint a beautiful picture of our relationship with God. But another piece of beauty is Paul’s heart for his spiritual family, his brothers and sisters in Christ, the Corinthians. Historically, we understand that our copy of 2 Corinthians was probably Paul’s fourth letter to this church that stirred his frustrations and affections. We see the words of a man so emotionally, mentally and spiritually invested in a group of people. He wanted nothing more for them than to experience the fullness of God among them.
I finally got it. I think many of us tend to read Scripture incorrectly. We want so badly to find a truth or promise that we tend to forget all of Scripture was originally written as a very passionate and personal expression, surely guided by the Holy Spirit, but not at all disconnected from persons or personal relationships.
Reading Scripture from the pen of a person so desperate for you to have greater understanding leads to a vulnerability that is missing if you’re only reading a book to find some facts and support for your own conclusions you’ve already drawn. Scripture becomes and encyclopedia, rather than an authentic expose on the heart and work of God.
Today, I saw a great quote from a friend. “If I am am asking the question, ‘How can I be more authentic?’ I’ve got a long way to go.” Vulnerability, authenticity, and transparency, are not about taking formal steps toward “their” end or fruition. Those traits come from genuine relationship based on love and trust.
So, how does this tie into my guilt trip over not blogging? Maybe rather than trying to take steps toward creative writing and explaining my point of view, I need to allow myself to be more loving and trust the people that may possibly intersect with my written ideas.
Vulnerability, authenticity, and transparency may be exactly what I need to be a better reader and a better writer.
Grace & peace,
jon
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